Hi。 Hope you're ok。

My name's Joe， and I'd like to explain why I'm holding a raw chicken and looking mildly terrified。

The short answer is weird stuff like this happens to me all the time。

The longer answer is my publisher asked for a photo of me， so I sent them that as a joke thinking they'd ask for a serious one， but they never did。 I forgot about it and， well， here we are。

I make videos about living with Borderline Personality Disorder （BPD）。 It's a complex mental illness。 15% of people with BPD die by suicide， and 40% try。 I'm in the 40%。 

If you haven't seen them， now you don't have to， because I've written a book about what it's like living with a voice in my head telling me to kill myself。 People tell me it's surprisingly uplifting。 

You'll have to buy Ten Things I Hate About Me to find out why I'm holding the chicken。 I promise that whatever you think， it's much， much worse。